It is strange to sit and think about death, but on the rare occasions that our lives are impacted by it, you can't help but think about it. The one thing that is hard to wrap my mind around or accept is that she is gone. Just like when loved ones die, this soul is gone forever and I will never meet anyone that is exactly like her for as long as I live. Her life, our memories and her personality disappeared when she died and ony live on through me. She will not hop throught the Christmas wrapping paper this year either. If it is true that there is something after death, I will not see her again for at least 50 years which is a very long time to wait. Like my grandmother, I cannot believe I won't speak to her ever again. I thought of getting another animal but you know that things can help with the hurt but nothing will replace her. So go and hug your animals because they are amazing and bring us so much joy. You don't know how long they will be with you, and we usually take them for granted, so let them know you love them.